Cry Baby Cry
It has been a while since I've cried......I don't like to be sad and I love to larf....but today I have felt like crying.....
This morning Mal drove off to Sydney this morning to attend the World AOG Church Pastors conference - he will be meeting up with his mates and all his Bible College pals....he will be gone for 7 days and he left before church and the girls and I were quite sad.
Before he left for the 10 hour drive ahead, we prayed for him and did a group hug (mind you I was still trying to wake up) CB did make me larf though because we were going through his checklist to make sure he remembered everything and she goes "did you remember your underwear - it would be terrible if you forgot those" and we all burst into fits of giggles -what a cutie....
But me wanting to cry is more than than him leaving us for a couple of days. I lead worship at church this morning and just felt the tangible presence of Christ with us - it was beautiful.
The sermon was about being humble - and oh how I felt humbled. It was around the scripture which talks about "whoever humbles himself like this child, is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven". I have heard many sermons on "being humbled" you have to be the least to be the greatest but none have impacted me like this morning.
Maybe because I feel God is stirring something within me and I'm reminded of the scripture in
Phill 2:3-5 "Don't be selfish; don't live to make a good impression on others. Be humble, thinking of others as beter than yourself. Don't just think about your own affairs, but be interested in others, too and in what they are doing. Your attitude should be the kind that was shown us by Jesus Christ" (The Living Bible)
We have been on the Coast here for nearly 4 years and in that time - I have gone from full time ministry to working full time in the workforce - what is God speaking to me?? What are the gentle tugs on my heart - why do I feel like crying????
This morning Mal drove off to Sydney this morning to attend the World AOG Church Pastors conference - he will be meeting up with his mates and all his Bible College pals....he will be gone for 7 days and he left before church and the girls and I were quite sad.
Before he left for the 10 hour drive ahead, we prayed for him and did a group hug (mind you I was still trying to wake up) CB did make me larf though because we were going through his checklist to make sure he remembered everything and she goes "did you remember your underwear - it would be terrible if you forgot those" and we all burst into fits of giggles -what a cutie....
But me wanting to cry is more than than him leaving us for a couple of days. I lead worship at church this morning and just felt the tangible presence of Christ with us - it was beautiful.
The sermon was about being humble - and oh how I felt humbled. It was around the scripture which talks about "whoever humbles himself like this child, is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven". I have heard many sermons on "being humbled" you have to be the least to be the greatest but none have impacted me like this morning.
Maybe because I feel God is stirring something within me and I'm reminded of the scripture in
Phill 2:3-5 "Don't be selfish; don't live to make a good impression on others. Be humble, thinking of others as beter than yourself. Don't just think about your own affairs, but be interested in others, too and in what they are doing. Your attitude should be the kind that was shown us by Jesus Christ" (The Living Bible)
We have been on the Coast here for nearly 4 years and in that time - I have gone from full time ministry to working full time in the workforce - what is God speaking to me?? What are the gentle tugs on my heart - why do I feel like crying????
Just needed to get that out of my head....
posted by Jeannie @ 3:03 PM
6 Comments:
At 7:17 AM,
Anonymous said…
Don't cry! We need you. Perhaps your ministry is in the secular workforce? It may be that that's the place you can influence with Christian ethics and values.
Cheer up dude! We love you.
Meg and Adrian.
At 9:37 AM,
Jeannie said…
Perhaps - thanks for your thoughts - good to have you back.
At 12:38 PM,
pete porter said…
Jeannie,
Tears are the language of God. I would like to find a church that cried. We need an old-fashion, tear jerking, gut reching, hankerchif nose blowing, revival. If I find a worshiping church, I'll be happy to bawl like a baby, and shout and laugh for joy. It may be God is birthing such a thing in you.
Be Blessed with His presence,
Pete
At 2:09 AM,
Callmeteem said…
I've always found tears to be beautiful. So cry on, worship on, love on, press on.
At 9:59 PM,
Jeannie said…
Thanks Pam for your kind words...I find that going to the gym can clear your head too...
Pete, thanks for your encouragement - I have been in a service where the whole congregation wept - it was a God moment.
Tim,thanks for your encouragement - never thought as tears being beautiful...
At 8:08 PM,
Jeannie said…
Most definitely...
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